I have new neighbors. The house I live in is a duplex. The second and third floors, which constitute the second apartment, have been empty since before I moved in. My landlord lived there previously but had moved out leaving most of his belongings behind. He kept saying he would get the place cleaned out and then rent it. I have enjoyed living here alone; it was certainly very quiet, but sometimes I wished for company. At the beginning of May, while I was in New York, Gene moved in. His wife came two weeks later with their dog, a cute little dachshund. So it’s not so quiet now. I can hear them walking around upstairs, but I find it very reassuring. I think I will like my new neighbors very much.
Ageism is not a healthy thing
Last week I celebrated my 72nd birthday. My 15 year old granddaughter said she told her health teacher that the family was taking me out for dinner. The teacher wanted to know if I was "still with it." Charna said she laughed and laughed, that I was more "with it" than the teacher. How sad that the teacher conveys this prejudice. I had a "with it" grandmother so I never belittled elders. I hope I am setting a similar example for my grandchildren .
Healthcare should not be a profit-making venture
The time for single-payer, universal healthcare may be coming. Sunday afternoon there was a hearing about it here in Pittsburgh. A number of people testified about their problems with our current system and Rep. John Conyers from Michigan and several of our local pols, including Rep. Mike Doyle, spoke. Conyers has introduced a bill in committee, HR 676, which would create a national healthcare system for everyone, similar to Medicare. Our Congressman, Mike Doyle has signed on to the bill along with 68 other Democrats. Republicans are evidently universally on the side of the insurance companies. Because this really is a fight that pits patients and health care providers against those insurance companies, pharmaceutical companies and for-profit hospitals. And the profits are amazing: 20 to 30 percent of our healthcare dollars go to the shareholders and executives of those companies who are providing nothing but aggravation for the rest of us.
Equally interesting, Jim Ferlo, one of our Pennsylvania state representatives has introduced a bill, PA SB 1085, creating a universal healthcare, single-payer system for the state of Pennsylvania, which unlike the one passed in Massachusetts, removes insurance companies from the healthcare system.
I’m very excited about these initiatives. Even though I am on Medicare, and theoretically, have nothing to worry about, I think our healthcare system is awful. I have few dealings with doctors, but each encounter, usually for preventative services, leaves me angry and unhappy. I don’t think a single-payer system is necessarily a cure-all, but it would free up doctors and nurses to practice medicine instead of worrying about insurance red tape.
www.healthcare-now.org has information on their website along with a petition you can send to your representative.
Our current healthcare system is not only bad for our health it is deleterious to the health of our entire economy.
- Business cannot plan ahead because they don’t know how much their healthcare costs will rise from one year to the next.
- Unemployment rates increase because employers want each worker to work longer hours, even where they have to pay time and a half, so they won’t have to pay benefits to additional people. Or they keep people on a contractor or part-time basis.
- People are forced to remain in unwanted jobs in order to maintain their health insurance.
- Entrepreneurs are unable to start new business because they can’t get health insurance.
- Trained medical personnel find it easier and more profitable to become insurance plan administrators than to continue providing needed services.
On June 7, 06-07-06, from noon to one o’clock, there will be rallies around the country. Here in Pittsburgh meet at Highmark, 120 Fifth Ave. It’s time to stand up and be counted.
Shaking Man
This sculpture, called Shaking Man, is on a walkway in Yerba Buena Garden. Many people stopped to take pictures and clown with it, but I think it really has something to do with the earthquake–that would make you shake. 
I was particularly taken with it. Depending on lighting conditions I often see multiple images just like this.
Three days in San Francisco
This is the first time I’ve been to San Francisco in twenty years or more. A lot of things have changed, but mostly it was the people–the locals not the tourists, who are the same all over. Twenty years ago I had the feeling everyone was on a holiday, even the locals. It seemed so idyllic. I had the impression you could go there and work and still be on a holiday, perpetually. Never mind that I didn’t think I could stand it.
Today, the locals look like they do in New York: everyone walks very quickly and no one makes eye contact. No more big time holiday. I don’t know whether it’s because everything is so expensive everyone works all the time, or whether it’s the panhandlers, nasty and aggressive, who reminded me of New York before Rudy Giuliani. All in all we had a good time, but sometimes it was a little scary.
I went to the Japanese Tea Garden and the de Young Museum in Golden Gate Park, the Asian Art Museum, the Legion of Honor in Lincoln Park and spent a lot of time in the new Yerba Buena Gardens near the Moscone Convention Center South of Market Street. The de Young has a fabulous collection of art from Papua New Guinea, which blew me away. I spent a lot of time looking at it, but still felt I couldn’t really comprehend it. However, it makes me think the pieces I brought back from PNG are worth a lot of money. Maybe someday I’ll try to sell them.
Another highlight of the de Young is their nine-story tower. You get a fabulous panorama of the western part of San Francisco.
The Asian Art Museum was a disappointment. They moved it to the old library building, kept the old shell and a couple of the old halls and built a new modern structure to show a bit of the collection. Unfortunately, like most new museums they give you more to read and fewer actual objects on view. I know they have a fabulous collection, but most of what I wanted to see wasn’t there.
I went to the Legion of Honor on the third morning, primarily because it entailed a long bus ride and I was tired and somewhat museum’d out. I found two interesting exhibits: the Reva and David Logan collection of artist illustrated books with a show of books illustrated by Picasso, and a show of photographs comparing sites from the 1906 earthquake with their contemporary equivalents.
This is the hundredth anniversary of that devastating earthquake. It’s hard to know whether they are celebrating it or are very nervous. They are certainly earthquake conscious. 
I have the feeling this seemingly useless square decoration on top of one of the downtown hotels was put there to defy the gods of the earthquake. I wouldn’t want to be standing under it when the earthquake comes.
Catching up on the last trip
One of the joys of New York City is the surprise of finding something new. As much time as I’ve spent being a tourist in the city, I never seem to see it all. One of the joys of this last trip was discovering the Conservatory Garden in Central Park. It’s hard to believe the concrete jungle houses all this beauty.
From the sublime to the ridiculous: I found this sign at Mass MOCA. 
I’m waiting to see who names their public restrooms (toilet stalls) for donors.
One of the highlights of our trip was the textile exhibit at the museum at Historic Deerfield. I’ve put some of the photos I took in the album called "Wonderful Cloth." I’ll add other wonderful fibers as I find them. Some of these textiles are also listed here. Do a search on embroidery or textile.
Mother’s Day
I don’t celebrate Mother’s Day. I had such a difficult, conflict-filled relationship with my mother, I don’t feel I want to continue any celebration. I was a dutiful daughter; I called her, sent presents, went to see her. I always felt extremely hypocritical.
I was determined my relationship with my daughter would be different, and it is. I know that I have an important place in her life; I don’t need a Mother’s Day card. One small example, tomorrow she is taking me to San Francisco. She goes to a conference and I can do my own thing. What more could I ask for?
My mother would never do anything with me, except possibly help me in the kitchen. And these joint ventures were always filled with "suggestions," even after I had been married 20 years. I think that was the only way she could communicate.
One of the good things about getting older is that I have lost most of my anger about her. I can acknowledge she did the only things she knew how to do; she was not mean. The pity is that we both lost out by her inability to grow and move out of the "prison-home" she created for herself.
I am sick
I’ve been fighting a cold since our first night in Amherst. I know it began about then because I bought some ibuprofen because I was headachey. I almost never get headaches and seldom take any medication, so that must have been the beginning. I got back here to Pittsburgh Wednesday night on Eileen’s Greyhound Bus, another story, and called the doctor first thing Thursday morning. They gave me a prescription for an antibiotic, told me they thought it was not pneumonia, only bronchitis, had me take a chest x-ray and some blood work to check for pneumonia, told me to drink a lot of liquids and sent me home. None of this was remarkable, except for one thing: for only the second time in my life I lost my appetite! Sick as I was, that was the silver lining. I can eat when I’m happy, bored, depressed, sick, well, you name. Nothing stops me. Since Monday, I’ve had some soup, a banana, grapefruit juice and not much else. I’ve lost about eight pounds. Now, if I could just figure out how to continue eating, or not eating, this way. Unfortunately, I’m feeling better; I finally got hungry again.
The tests confirmed I did not have pneumonia. Neither the doctor, nor I, thought I did. She told me to call in for the results today. I asked what would change if I had it. Answer: nothing. They would just want me back for follow-up. I keep wondering why I needed the tests. I would certainly come back if I wasn’t beginning to feel better. I think we as taxpayers, and I as patient, pay a lot of extra money for confirmation of the obvious. Or is this just one more example of our "cover your ass" culture?
Why did they laugh?
The line, said by the policeman to two little children, was, "If you have no money, you must think about dying." The people next to me, adults, not children, laughed. This was minutes into a performance of Brundibar, and after an opening act showing the family, with yellow stars sewn on their clothing, choosing their most treasured belongings and getting ready to leave their home. The opera, a fairy tale for children, had some amusing moments. There are wonderful performances by a cat, a dog and a sparrow. Very amusing, but I still could not laugh. The children who came to this performance as innocents, would not be troubled by its history, or even its newly added curtain raiser. But none of the children laughed at this horrendous line, only the three adults sitting near me. What kind of denial, or mania, prompted their laughter? It bothered me all day, and it still bothers me.
Too many museums
Obviously I am overdoing this. Nothing seems to please me. This was my third visit to the textile museum in Lowell. It’s a fascinating place, very well done. But it was empty, on Sunday afternoon. Renee and I were the only visitors. There were no guards, only the man at the admissions desk. Many of the exhibits have motion-activated sound. It was very spooky walking around and listening to voices, looms and spinning wheels from nowhere. Even so, I hope they survive; I’d like to go back again some day.
Yesterday I went to visit the newly-reopened Morgan Library where I may never return. They spent a lot of money to create a noisy, flashy space that totally ruins the ambiance the library was noted for. There is a large entry area (prepared for lots of visitors), a dining room, a cafe so noisy you could not hold a conversation with your dining partner, a gift shop, very prominent elevators and stairs, two new small gallery spaces and a reading room not generally open to the public. Mr. Morgan’s library and study and the older galleries are tucked away in corners you could easily miss. I guess you can call me grumpy, fat old artist.





